heart.mind.soul

2006-08-14T20:10:00.000-07:00

12 Aug:
Went over to manfred's house to slack around before meeting gawin n jasmine for ice skating at fuji ice palace... next time wanna go ice skating should go in grps of 4... cos its much cheaper and u get unlimited hours of skating...

After ice skating, the four of us went to fei cui la mian xiao long bao at suntec to have dinner... totally famished!!! our stomachs filled, we went to catch a little of the WCG action at the exhibition hall... i totally can't catch all the action that was going on in the DOTA game, but i could see the fascination of the game... it really takes skills, planning, and cooperatino between team mates to really play out the other teams. At ard 8.30, we headed for the esplanade to catch fireworks.... it was explosive n me n man took quite alot of videos.... nubbad la... must be much better den ndp fireworks... hahah... when the fireworks show ended, everyone just started moving off... and it was damn horrible cos there were jus too many ppl trying to squeeze through narrow walkways and the scene was suffocating lor.... squeeze until i totally sian....... but nonetheless i still enjoyed the fireworks a lot....

13 Aug:

played mj with mok, pl, shahri n baobei... zzzzzzzzzzz

at first won a lot of money with my qing yi se.... alas!!!! zzzz lost until i made a profit of only $2.80... but still nubbad considering i haven't played mj for a long time. after mj we had zhi char at the pasir ris pond.... was famished again n ya... the food was satisfying.... :)

14 Aug:
sch has officially started as of 14 Aug 2006 and my very first lecture in LT 8, SW1101E lecture 1... super slack la.... which is to be expected as it was only an introductory lecture... started abt 10mins late n ended 20 mins early with a 5 mins break in between... haha.... nubbad lor.... my travelling time took longer than the lecture... oh well...

SCH start liao lor

2006-08-03T06:42:00.000-07:00

31st july.... boring lor...went to nus to matriculate alone... after tt ended up at the matric fair with a lot of bags of rubbish... the discount vouchers cheate ppl de lor... expires on 31 july...

1 aug... went back to nus for talks... conclusion... modules system sucks... so complicated... but wat to do???

2 aug... BIG DAY!!!! happY 4Th mONtH deAR!!! so happy to have come such a "long" way... a lot of things happened along the way but all of them served to bring me n manfred bao bei closer... LU!!! ayyy but hor... early in the morning had to go back to nus for more talks... zzz after tt sneaked back into the matric fair to buy my laptop... acer travelmate 3012WTMi... zzzz made in china... oh well... jus hope it doesn't break down so often lor... actually its not bad lar... small n light... had lunch at nus den went to party world.... bloody bloodsuckers lor... $33 lar... idiot... wTH... after tt went to curry favour as highly rec by mok n pl.. realli quite nice la the curry... but the rice too wet, eat too much will feel siann...aniways/.... happy 4 th month!!!! hahahhahahahah

Hong Kong Day 5

2006-07-21T08:43:00.000-07:00

Hong Kong Day 4

2006-07-21T08:01:00.000-07:00

Hong Kong Day 3

2006-07-21T00:42:00.000-07:00

Hong Kong Day 2

2006-07-20T01:12:00.000-07:00

Today off we go to tour Hong Kong island... at the ferry terminal...

On the ferry towards hong kong island...
we came to this little cafe which we found in our guide book... can't remember the name la... n ya... we had bo luo you n egg tarts n milk tea... their snacks r too sweet for my liking...
on a tram.. which is quite an old form of public transport... nubbad la... oh... another setback in this trip.... we walk abt 1/10 of HK island lor!!! trying to find this stupid THE PEAK TRAM... to take the tram up to the peak...

the ride was an uphill climb... for the tram la... haha... really v steep climb lor.... its like ur on the uphill part of roller coaster... the view at the peak was really nice... but sadly, there was some construction work going on that blocked the full view/ spoilt the view lor... but nonetheless, w eenjoyed ourselves snapping shots of HK...

sun set.... really beautiful n romantic...
back at kowloon, we had choc tun nai at niu nai gong si.... TIRED LIAO LOR!!!... really walked alot alot alot... first time i walked so much on an overseas trip in a city!!!

Hong Kong Day 1

2006-07-20T00:21:00.000-07:00

At 3.30 am in the morning, i was already up n preparing to set off for the airport with Evelyn n Simin who stayed over at my house. ZZZZZZ the flight was so early lor... 6.40am... which is jus as well, cos it means we'll reach HK earlier. Ah~~~ but sian leh! this HK trip was quite bu shun li...from HK airport to our hotel(Dorsett Seaview) at Ma Yau Tei, we took a cab... which was a horrifyingly expensive choice of 400HKD... say liao i also paiseh... chop cabbage head lor!!! but bo bian la... we're noobs... hahah.... din do anough predeparture homework.
our first meal in HK... at MIDO cafe... supposedly quite famous la... got the nolstalgic air abt that place... but the utensils were rather dirty... my macaroni was not bad la... but seriously, i think i also can cook it.
legend's oyster sauce noodle... machiam feeding pigs one lor the portion!!! the noodles had a very strong chemical/preservative smell, and with no ingredients other den the cabbages, this is definitely not worth trying. but of course, milk tea is always fool proof.
at mido cafe...quite cosy lor...
Chan Foon met us in our hotel before taking us around the popular streets of Mongkok n Tsim Sa Tsui. HK is freaking hot!!! i was wearing jeans n walking along the streets of mongkok, i really wanted to take them off lor!!! xu liu shan, a drink stall was all over the place n their mango ice is nice! got jelly and mango cubes inside... a nice relief from the heat la... we went to this new city shopping centre at mongkok... high lor~ a lot of shops... haha... tts y no pics of tt place... oops
Ladies street was DISAPPOINTING... look what they're selling lor... corny undergarments... the entire street was selling trinkets, really-not-worth-buying clothes, fake LVs, GUCCI etc...
but i must admit, this wall of bags looked quite seh... hahaha...
our loot for the day!!! grrrr milly.... just had to spread her newly bought undies out...

ECP

2006-06-24T23:20:00.000-07:00

Amidst the world cup, 6 brave souls staked out at East Coast park for a night of rain, lightning, thunder, cold winds and finally slumped down on mac donald's seats to watch World Cup 2006.

geraldine, peilin, me, manfred, shahri n david were the 6 souls... who fraught with dangers from catching a flu n struck by lightning, took shelter bravely under a shelter and played daidee, which saw a minority condemned to being assholes... alas, when nature called, 2 brave souls were frightened by the frightening 'forryfying' flush which flushed itself twice. *chills* finally when the watch showed 3 am, the brave souls sat down to watch the world cup... morning came and the brave souls embarked on yet another journey to catch the sunrise...

peilin n david...

geraldine looking a little tired... o.... thats my head too! why let dear manfred have all the attention???
3 little girls...
HA! there u are! the warriors!!! hahaha.... from left cloclwise... david, geraldine, peilin, shahri, manfred and mE~~~

the sun slowly rising above the horizon...

just another 2 people in this world but the world to each other...
singles party... discrimination lor.... but discrimination will come to an end some day!
hehehe;)

2006-06-12T06:32:00.000-07:00

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LONG TIME NO BLOG

2006-05-16T07:25:00.000-07:00

it's been a long long time since i last blogged. there's hardly a moment when i feel like blogging these past weeks, coming home from work, i seriously jus wanna bum around.

hmmm so many things have happened. dunno how to start also... haha....sian diao liao... lazy to think.... haha.... shall blog again.... soon.... hopefully.....=D

Eugene's 21st birthday

2006-03-25T21:54:00.000-08:00

Eugene is a damn lucky guy lor... haha... us at triple e, which will include me geraldine peilin cairong jasmine manfred david shahri gawin n jacq spent quite a while preparing his bday presnt... haha... but we sure had a lot of fun preparing it lor.... eugene if u happen to see this... pls b very touched! haha! from shopping for 21 items to tagging all of them n wrapping everything up... we put in lots of sweat n blood... our love for u... eugene... must appreciate ah!!

so we went to eugen's chalet at changi. it was a joint celebration with his other friend david. the usual was available, food, which was great, n a HUGE bday cake which was super large as well... and damn nice! emicakes durian cake... shiok lor! hahha... shld have seen manfred n david eating devouring the cake like they've never eaten before lor... coRnY sia... den the rest of the time we played lots of bridge n daidee.. n so sian lor... kip becoming the asshole in daidee... cRAp man... till the end, only me peiling shahri manfred n david... n of cos eugene were left, so we played majong troughout the nite... n SIAN Lor... i ZHA HU... gotta pay everyone $3.20... luckily in chips nia.... woah... otherwise i will b broke lor!!! hahahaz... play with old birds like peilin n manfred ... of cos newER birds lugi... hahah...

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2006-03-17T06:52:00.000-08:00

The coices in life are plenty
The variety very many.

Some are smart
Others tempt the heart.

Where will they bring us?
What will they give us?
Who will guide us?
When will I ever know?

"I need some answers."
Somebody rouses.
"Whatever for?"
It's not just an either or.
"Cos' I'm confused."
Someone said, amused.

Everything happens for a reason.
And answers are a dime a dozen..
The only thing left to do is
choose.
So I did. I chose.

camp G.I.T 10-11 Mar 2006

2006-03-12T07:51:00.000-08:00

I was really looking forward to the camp and well, the camp was worth the wait. This time round, camp GIT is only 2days n 1 night, so many of the programs were done away with, but we still had lots of fun. We had treasure hunt on fri nite at pasir ris park where my grp, Pals, won.... haha... of cos with the help of me, jasmine n eugene... cos all the kids in my group are really young. Played card games with Jac, david, gawin and manfred the entire nite... from daidee to asshole daidee to bluff n den finally bridge, where jac kept pairing up with david n losing... woAHaha.... i think this is the first time i played bridge for so long n on full power lor... kept luffing n luffing... aHAha... it was more like intensive bridge training lor. morning, we had the station games, with maze, bean hunt, ankle lock n water passing as our 4 stations. the finale was the bombing game where all the kids had lots of fun bombing each other n us all making them kids wet. Yup... all i can say is that i really enjoyed the camp.

A level results 1.3.2006

2006-03-03T20:47:00.000-08:00

my heart was pounding away at one moment and wrenching itself at another however much i denied that i was OK, not afraid, not nervous. CRAP.

the last day of feb was spent at Mok's house with peilin. we were all trying to get our minds off the results that were going to be released on 1st march. naive idea. the morning of 1st march was filled with terror.

When milly, eve, eileen,peilin,qiuting n me reached HC, we saw the board where the sch's stats were pasted. CRAP. i'm not gonna be part of the % which spells good news. that's it. i'm done for. the principal's address was full of delight n joy with so many Hwachongians producing sterling results, i was was miserable. then, it was off to collect that one result slip that is mine, among so many others. well, all i can say is that i was in shock n disbelief n my worries were dispelled. almost all of mi frens did really well too, n what i saw were tears of joy. what more can i ask for?

Everything happens for a reason. But what happens of the decision i make? I'm still clueless.

2006-02-18T10:21:00.000-08:00

hiyoh hiyoh... when i have the time n luxury to sleep, i dun feel like sleeping, n when i dun, i feel like sleeping... aiyah... sian lor.... jus feel like typing now...
gave tuition from 3 to 5 pm... thats what keeps my brain active nowadays... so seriously ah.. i think those guys in NS are realli right to say that their cognitive abilities degenerate drastically n mental inactivity... haha... but it seems like becoming more dull isn't the only side effect... after dinner with mok, pl, yuyi, chyork, royston, yx n shiwei, we went to k box where yuelin joined us... den as we tried to biao1 ge1.... disaster struck... haha.... nobody was in the condition to biao1 at all lor!!! we girls were ok... but the guys ah.....either sore throat or suddenly go off pitch... feels miserable lor.... when u lose ur voice!!! haha... of cos it didn't dampen our spirits la... but think it mus be the endless army songs they shout almost everyday in unison with other guys that has spoiled the guys' vocals... gosh..... the 3 hours of k box-ing, all of us didn't want to go home.... esp the guys... so we went to kopitiam to continue talking...mostly abt ns stuff... AGAIN... its amazing how they keep on going on and on... i wonder how the situation would be like if girls had to serve ns as well... woah..... can imagine how we'll be rambling on and on... haha...

anyway, tml, 19-02-06 would mark our squad's 31st monthivarsary since we passed out.

2006-02-18T09:02:00.000-08:00

11 Feb... class dinner at Wheelock's NYDC...it was the most successful class outing in a long long time... abt 19 of us turned up, including our dear guys who were trapped in Tekong for quite some time, with their field camp etc... dinner was great, food was EX... but it was quite interesting n amusing to listen to the guys talk incessantly about their ns life... n YES... they are VULGAR ppl now... even taige sprouts vulgarites!! haha... well.... i think the next time so many of us meet up will be back in HC... getting back our results...... oh mAN...... hopefully everyone will be all smiles n tears of joy!!!

2006-02-18T08:36:00.000-08:00

Working at IRAS isn't totally fun... but the ppl there are generally quite nice... haha... here's our group photos... we had fun taking them... cos its time off our mundane job of stoning n calculating ppl's taxes... and the best part of it? we still get paid. haha...

2006-02-05T08:02:00.000-08:00

ah....... it seems like ages since i last blogged... finally a day to myself (except for 2 hrs of giving tuition).... what with work and CNY... hmmm so where shall i start?

oh well, working at IRAS is tough man.. staring at the stupid computer which is habitually slow n prone to errors, and me deriving some meagre amounts of entertainment by talking lame n listening to music... ay..... n the worst thing is ah.... the damn keyboard is ultra filthy lor.... its causing mi finger's skin to be peeling... dammit la... AH, but serves me right for not being a billionaire... sigH... life just isn't fair eh?

speaking of filth, i think my room is rather filthy... too many unwanted books that i simply couldn't bring myself to throw them away. i guess because these books are what developed my brains la... whatever... but aniway, today i jus dug them all out n threw away 5 big bags of books cum other rubbish.... but there's still some left to remind me of days past. i cleaned out my own keyboard n mouse with disinfectant n after all these chores were done, i bathed n wow~~~ the clean feeling was great la... hahaz...

yest all of us from triple e went to the airport to send jaslyn off to australia. it was emotional for jas who was touched by everyone's well wishes, her close friends who couldn't bear to see her jetting off for months. as for me, i jus simply hope she enjoys her study in aussie n stay safe.

haiz..you can be amazed by reality, but you got to accept the facts. This is the first time in eons i started off the year without going back to school and that really made we realise how fast time passed me by. i still rem us girls finding much amusement in imagining the guys without their crowning glory and now, the guys have already been in tekong from quite some time now. cousins who used to play catching n sparklers n lanterns with me are now grown up or growing up fast, with their fair share of ambitions n woes i've never seen in them. a relative who annouced plans to get married last yr's CNY came to visit this yr with a baby in tow. Change is the only constant in this world. how true.

changes are hard to accept but decisions are far harder to swallow. A levels results are coming out real soon and i really cannot imagine what i'll be seeing on my result slip. if they're good, what shall i choose to study in uni? if they're lousy, what can i study in uni? what do i wan, where do i go? these questions have been hounding me with increasing frequency and intensity, it's getting rather scary and nerve wreaking. the only comfort lies in the fact that change is the only constant and who's to ascertain what's going to happen in the future? but i think, whatever it is, i have to make the best out of eveything. now, i jus pray.

hmmm feel like learning something new lehz... maybe guitar, a new sport.... dunno leh.. alot of things are beckoning at me to pick them up..... but alas... everyone seems too busy and i'm wondering where n when my resolute to do things will come looking for me.....
ok la... shall go sleep lest i concuss tml...

coincidence

2006-01-19T06:40:00.000-08:00

It was damn freaky. I always thought my name cheng shieh ling was rare n weird. firstly cos v few ppl have the surname cheng and secondly i thot 雪 would normally be "xue" instead of a longer "shieh". n it so happened that as i was handling some documents i came across this exact same name!!!!!! it belonged to a girl 2 yrs older.... haha.... gosh lor......

2006-01-16T06:32:00.000-08:00

It feels weird not blogging about an overseas holiday trip but oh well, I'm too lazy to upload the same photos all over again... so, visit HERE.

class chalet 27 to 30 Dec

2006-01-03T18:45:00.000-08:00

Our class's long awaited chalet at Changi Aloha... well, not exactly class cos so few ppl turned up and stayed lorz.... the most no. of ppl was during the bbq.. den the least was 4 of us left on the 4th day.... yes... 4th day... such a long chalet lor...dunno for what also... haha.... but anyway, the chalet was another opportunity for many of us to bond together, probably the last chance before people sail off to tekong or jet off to other countries...

charcoal chicken...can you spot the chicken wing??? haha... had such an awful time before bbq started disjointing the three-joint chicken wings...

this time we used heat instead of fire to cook... hence resulting in thoroughly cooked food rather than burnt and uncooked food...
-=Evelyn=-
-=Eileen=-
-=Me=-
-=Me Eileen Evelyn=-
the 8 of us...
qiuting, evelyn, me, legend, irene, eileen

-=04S72=-

X'mas party at auntie Norin's house

2006-01-02T06:56:00.000-08:00

2005-12-19T07:45:00.000-08:00

woahz.....i think i'm 50% rotten already... kaozzz i realise that saying u wan money n a job doesn't drop from the sky... well, sometimes they do... haha...yeah got $200 for improvement award... also dunno how i got it la.... must be i too lousy at first den got a little bit of improvement.... ahaha...whatever... point is, i'm getting money.

haIyz... mi compy has been a great companion these days.... jIAyoU mY darling DIan nAO... bleAHZzzz

well, at least there was something fun to keep me occupied for 2 days. Went for PRFSC kids' camp... Moving Ahead...

I was the group leader for white team... consisting of 9 great kids: beverly, the artistic kid. jiahui, the outgoing one. rachel(white), the expressive one. rachel(pink), the v thin but cute gal. shirley, the gal with beautiful long hair. khalis, the v on n responsible kid. bryan tan, me n jas's nemesis. theudas, the handful one. elvis, the comical one...

On Friday, we did our team flag, which was white in colour.... yeah u got it...white flag....n to make up for this, we named ourselves N.S.D for Never Say Die... hehe... after that was lifeskills where we brought the kids out to white sands NTUC to buy food for tea break with just $10. With that we managed to get fruits n a bottle of choc syrup... den back at the centre, we produced our piece of art, love boat by the choc sea... haha... there's two papaya boats in the middle of a fruit syrup.....rather cute. later was the station games where i really had a big headache with the kids as its really tough handling mischievous kids who can't keep still for longer than a fraction of a second... but nonetheless i think all of us enjoyed the challenging games la.... den we had dinner and a magic show... by this time, geraldine, eugene, david, manfred were at the centre, so finally got some ppl to crap with... n also thank god jas is same grp's leader as me la... if not ah..... woah.... chaos man. at night the stupid rain made us cancel the night trail so we substituted with fancy dress.... hahah.... the kids were so enthu la! damn cute... my grp's one was ckn little played by khalis, with his chicken currypok hairdo... comical man... wish i could put up the video clip!!! haha...

night time sux la.... no place to sleep properly den the aircon was freezing... so i had a tough nite... den morning when i got up from the rolling chair also can fall off.... so malu lor..... den the rest of sat was mostly spent on planning n rehearsing a short performance for the parents in the evening. Finally my dear white team came up with a decent skit abt christmas n ckn little n well, the entire performance went smoothly. The camp ended with a sumptuous buffet dinner for everyone... n surprisingly there was a lot of leftovers, so we ta paoed home lor.... i also learnt that most of the P6 kids fared well for their PSLE... n their parents were so grateful to auntie norin n triple E volunteers... when i saw the sincere gratitude the parents showed, i felt really great even though i did not personally tuition those kids...

Helping others is neither necessarily easy nor difficult. It all depends on how much you want to help, and how little you expect in return. The joy of helping others is perhaps the greatest return.

2005-12-11T06:59:00.000-08:00

finally prom is here.... no more shopping for prom stuff.... huRRAY!!!!! haha... this yr's theme was Masquerade...as was a few other JC's.... but who cares! Ritz Carlton Millenia is fabulous lor...although the lobby isn't as grand as fullerton.... but come on.... its 6*!!! i was quite blown away by its rooms... well, room 2122 to be exact.... that's where we stayed for the night... the grand ballroom was......woooooo CHIO~~ haha.... the food was not that fantastic though, partly cos we were too busy walking around n taking photos.... everyone looked so gorgeous n picture perfect, it was a waste not to capture our youth n beauty! haha..... well well... it was an enjoyable evening....

taBleWArE

fooD anyone~? okie i know my hands are fat...

me n peilin in the bathtub... damn....RITZ RocKz~~

eileen, me, peilin... this pic so warm n nice!

it was hard work taking this pic....waiting for ppl, n half squatting in heels!!! goSH

i tell ya... the toilet rocks....i love it totally....

irene's sexy back..... woot!

beauties and..... well...... haha..... handsomes!

indochine...after tequila shot, vodka lime, vodka ribena, gin n tonic, n 3 hrs of dancing

i dun like it...

2005-12-07T18:07:00.000-08:00

today's prom, hopefully it'll be fun... n can take lots of pics.... haha...everyone will be so pretty lor....as for handsome..... haha...... god knows!!! finally this stupid day is coming....which means it will be over!!!! caused me to go shopping for entire days jus looking for prom stuff... but oh well....

haizzzz..... been rotting at home lorz...... hope i can get a job right after prom lor....i think i'm like so suay lar...... haiz...... how come can't get a job???? hahhaz...siaNzzz

2005-11-29T08:22:00.000-08:00

hmmm... very lazy to blog these days...
worked 3 days at great world city selling toys n gifts.....12 hrs a day, $4 an hour.... 1/2 hr meal breaks upon spontaneous requests... almost sucked me dry of life man..... i would squeeze out a smile with snobbish, rude, demanding tai tais. Now i know why the service industry is such a tough ground. rich tai tais, expats aside, the toddlers were so adorable, albeit a little mischievous. yeah, so geraldine brought up to the boss that we wanted to quit, n i seriously felt like i'm a spoilt kid who can't take hardship, but that's not the pt. money is v important.

Monday:
slacked at home for the first time in months den went out to eastpoint for squad dinner cum send yuelin off for ns dinner. wow..... quite alot of ppl who usually dun turn up for outings turned up... was very happy to see my squadmates all well n fine.... had dinner at jack's place... nice ambience, nice food. after dinner was pool session at tampines... wow.... the last time so many of us went pool together was during our np days, when we chiong bedok after activities... haha... it was a fun 2 or 3 hrs even though my pool sux.... after all the guys book into tekong n find girlfriends, i really wonder when will the next outing be...............

Today:
I'm jobless n i money, so went with mok to find job at job agency. actually any job will suit me fine as long as i dun hafta approach ppl on the streets or work like a donkey for measly pay. yup, so hopefully can find a job soon lor... den to satisfy my dear Mok's craving for xiao long bao, we went to taka fei cui for la mian n xiao long bao.... kao..... ate until i got stomachache.... maybe cos too much vinegar...... den went around shopping n its quite disappointing la.... cos so many shops are selling winter clothings n dresses which i have no use for.... ohhh wonder if u walked by the photo exhibits outside borders? i think they're fantastic lor..... the panoramic bird's eye view of earth's landscape not only shows us nature's wonders but also what humanity n urbanization has grossly changed the face of earth.... now i really wonder how long earth can sustain us all....
ard 2 pm, met up with eve, eileen, leekai, eric n milly for harry potter. the show was nubbad la..... wonder who can lend me the storybook to read leh..... can you? haha.....
after the show, went to topman to help leekai find prom shirt....we were so enthu n fate has it that we found one that suit him very quickly..... i was quite surprised that he was so willing to try styles that he would never imagine n b willing to spend the money on shirts... den proceeded to G2000 to see eric's stuff... dots... i've never seen 4 girls accompanying a guy to buy his shirt lor...... haiz..... den the bad thing happened. we went to crystal jade.... for me..... AGAIN..... SIGH.....but nvm lar..... since the needs of the minority can never be met.... haha... kane n taige joined us later... once again, we pissed crystal jade staff by digging out loose coins... haha..... feeling full, we went out to take photos lorz..... but honestly ah.... i think every year christmas lightings are more or less the same la.... but.... bright lights along the streets always make me feel happy.

IT'S OFFICIALLY OVER

2005-11-24T23:36:00.000-08:00

after months of pure agony, relentless mugging, infinite hours of sleep deprived from me, it's over. Today was bio MCQ, which marked the end to my A levels ordeal. Yes, its an ordeal, no less. I did the paper with such happiness and bliss, i finished way before time was up... how i wish this was the case for the other papers... but well, it's over! Now i shall wait for my results...

And so i left all that i have worked so hard for behind and was soon town-bound. me, milly, eileen qiuting n evelyn went to K box to let out all the stress but WTH... cinei K box stuff SUCKX big time lor... what kind of attitude are they dishing out to their customers man( esp those in sch uniform) . We went to the upstairs K box(if ya know what i mean) n asked if they could let us in for K lunch cos it showed 11 am on all our watch faces. then that bloody girl said " my clock not 11 yet" in such a curt manner i could have slapped her if not for my good mood. n their rooms and system are pathetic. the food was worse! their sushi set lunch is from suki sushi... n their sushi was an insult to sushi..... oh well....

den we headed to far east to walk around . this damn shop at level one has an old hag who's a real blob of crap... my fren was jus looking at a dress n she said" this dress is too small for u" n SNATChed it away.... KAO like ur lousy n expensive is so popular lor..... i hope ur shop kenna burnt down.... well on 2nd thoughts.... i shan't be mean......cos i believe in retribution....

den me qiuting n milly took the train home. den on the train was another idiot who somehow discriminates students... damn her..... u see, the train was crowded..... n u noe how awful it can be.... for everyone..... den i heard the idiotic woman talk on the phone..." the train is blloody smelly lar.... n i can't move.....its so crowded n i'm surrounded by students" aY HELLO if u think we stink den say so....... although i think ur nostrils are probably whats so smelly... we bath n put on deo religiously for goodness sake, KAO.....

but to end off my day decently, i bought my digicam finally!!! MY BABY!!! haha.... digicams may be nth much to u who has had one or more a long time ago..... but my baby..... is the result of hard-saved money!

Hoping the feeling of emptiness doesn't drop by too often!

pure torture

2005-11-11T21:57:00.000-08:00

goSH.... A levels n O levels are so different in terms of standards...and to exacerbate matters, this yr's papers were much more difficult than all the previous years....
bio was quite ok but i was totally pissed cos not a single kidney question was asked... n i spent hell lot of time on kidney... DAMN... n all the questions had heavy weightage.... its like quite dumb... no wonder hc ppl score well in bio... cos hc marking is one point half a mark... A lvls? i guess the marks awarded is twice that... hopefully~
then maths...... KAO.... paper one was ok... den paper 2 was like SHIT..... i did like almost ten yrs' worth of paper 2s n all were so simple.... budden this yr ah....kao... the qns were so convoluted n indirect n DUNNO what the hell they asking lar! kao..... now i'm seriously fretting!
GP was ok la.... except the chief examiner KU Ku one.... ask us to start when there were only fulscap n cover page on our tables...... what a time for blunders like this!!! could have affected ppl's mood lor!!! at least my kind of question came out.... "There's no such thing as luck. Ppl determine their own lives" do you agree? hmm this kinda qn no need much to gobble up all those wads of notes...... haha..... jus CRAP n hopefully the cambridge markers are impressed.. compre was ok too... at least there's only one passage n that means more focus.... the qns were ok too.....

hAis.... 4 more papers for me to do only..... over 2 weeks sommore.... perhaps thats the only good thing abt taking 3 sub.... hAIsz....budden ah...... if ani one of my sub CMI hor... den i think i'm a goner........ so to everyone who still having papers esp those chem econs phy ppl...... jIA yoU!

life sucks

2005-11-02T22:31:00.000-08:00

yeah life now sucks like hell.... its mugging n more mugging... like what mok says, different day same shit.... dots lorz... waking up at 8 am, breakfast, mug, lunch, mug, dinner, mug, den doze off.. n its t shirt n shorts, shorts n t shirt... sometimes till the point where i dun see the point in bathing...... haha~~~ sian.... but bathing is GOOD... cos u can't mug while bathing... but den again..... nvm.....

n yes.... i'm beginning to HATE birds... why the hell must they fly above ur heads n spread the freaking flu??? siGh.... but den again, its nature. arh.....freak them feathery counterparts.

i HATE myself now.....so haggard n unhealthy n cooped up n laden with milk..... erm no.... information..... aRghz.... i'm not talking sense at all...

sigh..... no point wasting my time wallowing in self pity..... cos a lot of ppl are in the same state as me..... but HAH~ in less than 1 month's time, i'll be embracing freedom n life again! adieu! thou evil stacks of notes that hath brought upon me poor soul endless sorrow n misery!!!! haha~

mugging n more mugging

2005-10-18T19:07:00.000-07:00

sigh... exactly 3 more weeks to the start of the A levels... how prepared am i for it??? should be not bad lar... covering more ground at a faster rate budden math is still quite a hurdle... hopefully i can start practising full papers by next week... actually mugging for As is much less taxing than mugging for prelims cos everythings' more or less in the brain already. somewhere. that said... i hope i can keep up the momentum n peak during the final papers!

hmmmm enough abt mugging... yeah... school ended last friday 14 oct... though there were only about half the class who went for dinner at fei cui, we had a whale of a time eating! haha.... my table was the below poverty line table, cos we each had one long of long bao(sounds weird) n a little smth else each budden the other table was having a feast la! peilin, jiayin,eileen,milly,yixin,eric n taige.....gluttons? hahah... my table comprised me,qiuting,irene, legend, evelyn,kane, ks,lisa, the comparatively more sane ppl... haha... so we ate n took alot of photos n irritated the waitresses as we poor students had to argue over $0.07. yup. n recently i've been noticing how waitresses/waiters, salespersons serve customers. conclusion: fei cui service is not paralleled to its reputation as a higher end restaturant. they were so impatient in collecting our bills n i din even hear words like thank you etc... i suspect its a case of over commercialisation n snob. come on man.... buck up service standards for the sake of singapore! haha...

anyway after dinner we intended to walk to fort canning from taka but changed our minds n settled down at the istana park. i remember the last time we were there was after STJ(senior treat junior) at fish n co... this time around, the atmosphere was markedly different. I sensed that everyone was feeling rather melancholy, perhaps it was due to exam stress, but i guess it was the reality that we were all facing--- bidding farewell to our JC life. We played a litlle truth or dare, but there was no dare at all but frankly, there was nothing very juicy. hopefully can squeeze more things out during our chalet! haha... the session was ended in tears when we hugged one another n wished each other all the best for the upcoming exams. There n then, i couldn't cry, as i was so happy that we so truly cherished one another n that our class which was once so divided n pathetic, is now so united n warm... so...i have to say this.... 04S72.... i love you!

sch's almost out

2005-10-13T22:00:00.000-07:00

i went to sch today for a 1 hr 20 min bio lecture... the time i take to go to school n back home takes about twice as long... you must be telling me to pon... but hey... i really dun see the point in ponning school...

went through sexual repro questions without any hiccups, what could go wrong with the very zai mrs foo ard?? sigh... this is the last lecture by her... i think she's really one of the most efficient n steady tutor ard... haha...she turned a class that smelt others' backside into one that showed off her ass to others!!! haha...crude la but it's true 04S72 really wo hu chang long...

the most motivating words i've heard so far since exams stress started building up: "you've already come this far. It'll be a waste to give up now" how true... i've worked so hard with the aim of succeeding, not to fail, so i can't give up now!!

the last song

2005-10-12T22:00:00.000-07:00

this morning was jus like any other normal school days where hordes of students still hanging around the class benches were shooed by the intimately adderessed tiger lee to attend morning assembly.

"the school song"...
" as part of our voices......."

It's the very last time i would be singing the school song in Hwa Chong and at that point in time where i was listening to the school song( i dun usually sing anithing during morning assemblies), i wondered which other JC2 student realised that it was the last time they would be singing the school song.

Before time had diluted my memories of the last day of school in DHS, i have almost completed another part of my journey. I had my doubts reserves about 1 year and 10 months ago when i stepped into Hwa Chong but before i knew it, my JC life is almost over... how much i matured, how much i achieved, i dare not compare with others, but what i don't pale in comparison with others is the feelings i felt throughout JC...

In just a short span of 2 years, i have gone through a lot, both good and bad. I have seen how my CT( 04S72) changed, how my classmates changed, how i myself have changed....

2004:

everyone was still awkward with one another. There was evidently a lot of cliques, dunman clan, sc clan... all those awful exclusions of individuals made me sick to the core... perhaps cos i didn't belong to any cliques, but more because i prefer a united class...
the system in JC was markedly different from that in DHS. more freedom means more discipline if high levels of performance was to be maintained. sadly, i abused the freedom i had and allowed myself to indulge in the sinful act of sloth. thus, the results were mine to bear.
which brings me to another point. I think my confidence has been greatly hit. i find myself less confident, which is really bad....perhaps u may not notice it, but yes, i feel much less confident to the point of feeling inferior....
PW, CCAs and immaturity spawned enmity, quarrels, ostracisms amongst many of us. i jus couldn't understand how silly we were.
After promos and PW ended, things took a change for the better. Our class had a chalet where i guess bonded most of us...

2005:

a new school year, things looked promising, and it was. at least our math n bio tutors were now permanent and not pregnant! goodness, las yr both math n bio tutors were pregnant!
mrs foo n mdm yeo were great teachers, at least our grades showed, n i gradually picked up some comfidence.
our class was becoming more crappy, loads of crap coming mainly from the usual suspects( guess i'm guilty), yeah... the things become catalysed... n 40 mins were passed in continuous laughter.
though all of us had different "buddies" in class, there was much more class spirit n it is mentally comforting as we rendered support to each other esp when we were mugging for prelims.

And i hope the story continues... the stress of the exams has overpowered the sad emotions that comes with every ending of a story,ironically. 04S72 is full of bright ppl who would soon jet off to different parts of the world after this year and gatherings will be bound have many absentees. thats the reality of life, but i hope that down the years, we'll still be as joyful as we are now...

Be Glad

2005-10-08T07:08:00.001-07:00

Be glad

Be glad that you don’t have svelte figures or six pecs
Some people have bloated bellies that scream for food that may never come

Be glad you don’t have nicer clothes to wear
Some people have clothes that are torn and tattered.

Be glad you don’t have enough money for that Nike shoes.
Some people have only the calloused n rough skin on their feet.

Be glad you don’t have a huge bungalow in Bukit Timah.
Some people have all the land with zinc roofs and all the rubbish and dirt.

Be glad you don’t have As in your exams
Some people have A, B and if lucky, a C in their entire vocabulary.

Be glad you don’t have more time to spend.
Some people have time to breath in dust before they bite it.

Be glad you don’t have more gory pictures to see on the newspapers.
Some people have relatives whom you’ve seen in those gory pictures.

Be glad you don’t have a seat on the MRT.
Some people have seats they dare not sit on for fears of another bomb.

Be glad you don’t have your daddy drive you to school.
Some people have cars they can’t drive to make their livelihood cos they couldn’t afford fuel.

Be glad you don’t have jaw-dropping economic growth rates this quarter.
Some people have economies that are worse than not having one at all.

Be glad you don’t have illnesses.
Be glad you don’t have missing limbs.
Be glad you don’t have to worry about not having food to eat.
Be glad that you don’t have to fear death every time you open your eyes.
Be glad you can feel, you can smile, you can cry, you can feel comfortable.
Be glad of all the things you have n fuss not the things you don’t have.
Be glad.

life's gonna be so SIAN for 2 months!

2005-10-08T06:14:00.000-07:00

so pissed, las nite i typed out an essay about the evolution of Homo Sapiens den blogspot jus hanged n POOF my entry was goNE... wTH...

yeah aniwae today i was like a big fat slacker... dunno y i couldn't sit still n conc on my bio... so i alternated between bumming, studying, tv-ing, eating, studying.... den i couldn't stand it so went for a run... sloth is a sin... therefore i decided to repent! haha... den crazy for some personal time, i went to TM to walk walk... haha...

yeah today is sian la......

hot hot hot

2005-10-07T07:16:00.000-07:00

today was totally another fei4 day... woke up at 5.30 to finish of chem paper den packed my stuff and went to sch... damn... i'm still so early la... GP starts at 9.20... hAIz... GP was a waste of my time la... other CTs are feverishly doing compre n essays.... while my CT... talking about GP which would hardly be of great help... what to do? our dear tutor's sick, preoccupied with her wedding n most appallingly, inexperienced... k shall not demean her lest i get sued by HCI or whatever...

so finally GP lesson over den me, eve, irene, weed, eric n ks went swimming!!! FInally after so many days of comtemplating swimming sessions by myself n failing terribly to do so due to utter sloth, finally get to swim... peilin, qiuting n jiayin studied at poolside restaurant while we swam... the sun was beating down hard on us but SUN is GOOD... repeat after me... SUN is GOOD.... not sun ho though... i think she sucks totally... anyway, swam 30 laps like a humpback whale.... slow n steady... chinese high pool is shuang cos there's literally no one else other den us n entry fees is only $0.20... though we pay $3 every month for its maintenance!!! damn.... but aniwae it was a good swim... hoped i burned some calories! haha... woah... but kao eh.... i din realise my goggles too tight so now both my eye areas are bruised!!! =(

today fa yi X dang an last episode... I think this show is worth watching, not becos the actors and actresses' acting were superb but rather the storyline was pretty captivating n mind boggling... even my dad who abhors tv serials commented tt it was QUITE nice... haha... yup so the last ep talked abt these humanoid plants n their all the env stuff... left me thinking abt Homo Sapiens, aka humans.

i think its really amazing that we humans, with neither the size to overwhelm predators like the elephants, nor the speed, claws, strength nor stealth of the big cats to overpower preys could adapt so well to the environment n fluorish. I read that the success of Homo Sapiens had to do with their success in obtaining more nutitious foods n quality rest that allowed the development of our brains. well, so i guess we are what we are today due to our ancestors, but i believe that in the course of our evolution, we Homo Sapiens must have done great evil, as our competitors had to be eliminated, if we were to get the most resources. Survival of the fittest, perhaps that's the reality of life. Sometimes i wonder if our survival n great success in perpetuation on Earth is really good. Look at all the world today, there are still so many people who can hardly feed n clothe themselves, who spend half their lives being eaten by diseases, who were born to die. Yet, there are people who gorge themselves silly at table buffets n discard food indiscriminately, splurge on expensive clothes that probably a child made for less than a dollar.

Actually, the human reproductive success is one of the lowest in the animal kingdom(a tiny fraction of sperms ejaculated make it to the egg, 40% of fertilised eggs make it to the 3rd month) so many odds against the production of a new human being, yet Earth is almost brimming with humans in this 21st century. Isn't our life force amazing? I think its so strong that it has suppresed and threatened the life force of the natural world, animals and trees alike. Ironically, we feed the life force of bacteria n viruses that threaten our own life force! I can't help but wonder if we ourselves are the cause of our own undoing... I think the world today is a quite a horrible place to be, like it was since the first human civilisation sprouted. though i'm no history pro or well versed in current affairs, it's really not hard to notice that there has been no cessation of wars, genocide, cruelty, endemics, pollution, destruction, disasters, corruption, misery...the list goes on. yet people in power don't seem to give a hoot, n carry on playing with nuclear weapons n all that. Maybe after all that humans' talk about love, peace, benevolence n all those feelings we pride oursleves upon, we are innately, undeniably driven by the instincts to survive...

whew....

2005-10-05T20:31:00.000-07:00

finally got back bio today... think i did ok lar.... got a high D... though could have been better...haha... but i shall not complain... already suan above avg liao....hmmm budden i still hope got moderation lorz... but by the looks of the situation like v difficult la... cos got one PRO kia bio international olympiad gold medallist go n zai zai score 80.6 marks.... n dashed over 400 ppl's hopes of perhaps jumping a grade... woW la... should i be congratulating him or cursing him??? crazy freak... 80.6 for a HC BIO paper??? haha.... he's damn zai lar... but oh well...

today checked out auzzie uni at career guidance room, cos some uni application ppl were there... i'm very interested in taking up speech pathology which is offered at La Trobe n Sydney, so i've decided to apply for both n see can get a place or not... aniwae no harm la since the application fees are waived... budden ah... here's the catch... i'll have to apply using O levels results n A level forecast, which is to be given by my tutors n to b kept confidential from me... fantastic... cos i bet my forecast will be like crap lar... sigH getting a place is one thing, but the other greater hurdle would be to get a scholarship to fund my education... aH... though the org din say scholarship require 4'A's or S papers... budden think of it lar... what are the chances of a person with only 3 pathetic sub being offered a scholarship amongst the sea of 4'A's? really dunno lar... will really hafta depend on how much good deeds i did in my previous life liaoz.... yeah n of cos the final hurdle would b securing 3 As n smth decent for GP.... so the next 33 days shall be very important....

Hmmm

2005-10-03T22:57:00.000-07:00

sigh... today's chem day... yeah got back chem...the cohort was FANTASTIC... the mode was O yes... abt 210 ppl had O(35-49 marks) n i am one of theM!!! siGH... another flop... what the hell is wrong with me lar..... did somebody lock my brain up or ate it? pls return it to me... i'm realli in need of my brain~~~ siGhz... i can't imagine if this were to happen during As... oMg... i'm visualizing the moment when i get back my result slip n i have like OOO or what den i might as well dig a hole n bury myself alive!!! goSH... this is great! i have motivation to mug already! aRGH... feel so disgusted with myself....AGAIN...whats up with me man....269, 7 , n now...realli xiao shi liao liao da wei bi jia! F man...

anyway, don't have to worry abt me... jus pouring my grouses to you who are so free to read my blog...wait for good news next year! haha... may this be the only pit in my life!

hmmm... feeling numb now... monday blues...recently in the empty slots of time with nothing to do, i've been thinking about alot of things... mainly about myself... what's the purpose of life? what comes after death? are we jus an empty shell when our hearts stops n breathing ceases? I sort of believe in after-life... well... are all things in life predestined? Am i strong enough to take anyting that comes my way in stride? yuelin's mood has sort of affected my thoughts... he's unhappy over some things in life... so m i...(mainly results lar for me) is failure lethal? why should our lives be scarred by unhappy things that happen in life? well, unhappy, traumatic experiences are hard to forget, and neither should they be forgotten. Such experiences are part of our lives and they are what defines a human life that begins from birth, where everything that we feel, see, touch,smell, taste translate into our own stories. Neither you nor i can fathom what becomes of people after they die. The only thing that we can relate to is what happens here and now... What i'm trying to say is that we should open our hearts and mind to whatever happens to us and yes... face the music... more often than not, all it takes to overcome negative feelings is a change in viewpoint. Feeling hungry sucks.... you hate it... but instead of being grouchy, tell yourself that your food will be tastier when ur famished! hmmmm weak analogy but i suppose u get what i mean...

jus now was flipping through a mag...lifestyle... den i saw this pic of a very beautiful woman beside another pic of the same woman, but about 20 to 30 years later. My god! how she has aged! it den hit me that youth and time are possessions that slip away from us every moment and we will age one day, losing our supple skin, agility and all other manifestations of youth in exchange for wrinkles, walking sticks etc. We should really enjoy n indulge ourselves in the time that is now n the youth that is us. Why let negative experiences and feelings put us down, make us waste precious time feeling sad n all, when we jus need a change in viewpoint to set free the youth in us to make all experiences, good and bad alike, precious memories that will accompany us in old?

not all of us can have to-die-for figures, exams killing intelligence, almighty riches, fame, power whatever. of course it doesn't mean we shouldn't work towards self improvement, but i believe that whatever decisions you make, you must be answerable to yourself. basically, live happy in all situations. what matters is that we have not wasted time. hmmmm.

hmmm...actually i'm not surprised if you dun understand what i wrote above... they are jus fragments of my jumble of thoughts... but i'll be glad if my thoughts made any difference to you out there who's feeling like its the end of the world the next second!

DOWN

2005-10-01T22:02:00.000-07:00

DOWN
up to heaven
down to hell,
so far i'm saddened
can't you tell?

once you were,
always so near.
now you are,
my only fear.

you put me down
left me there,
you made me frown
and sometimes swear.

my marks were sad
so i was down,
but don't worry lad,
when i get my As,
you'll kow tow!

--Jennifer Cheng--

Sometimes you do not really reap what you sow

2005-09-30T19:20:00.000-07:00

ok... this blog was set up on my lover's request... let me intro... my lover's name is Geraldine... haha... jus for fun lar....she's v nice to disturb... anyway i still believe in WRITING diaries...its a place for dirty little secrets... haha...

aHhhh today jus got back mi maths... it really sucks when all ard me are those ppl who are fretting whether they have A or not when i'm thinking am i dead or not... got back paper1...68... ok la... got hope... den paper 2...54... ok fine lor... what can i do? all stat's fault... in the end overall got D... actualli i think its not THAT BAD la budden when others are like scoring an overall of 95... u ask yourself: what's up man? are you THAT BAD??? Sigh... budden i tried la... maths is jus not me... budden U dun look down on me! (I feel inferior...) i WILL get an A for 'A's one...

Anyway post prelim schedule is retarded...we had to wait 4 precious hours jus for a GP lesson which lasted a pathetic 1 hr 20 mins... so... me, eileen, lisa,wanyu, foo simin, jiayin,wanyi,yuexin,milly,eric n ks went to holland v t o eat...waited for swensons to open at 10.30 den finally left without yuexin,milly n wanyi cos they went back to sch... ok... so we were so enthu abt eating n ordered our main course which we topped up $1 for free flow ice-cream...bet the swenson's ppl regretted telling us! yeah so our food came, we were quite happy until we smelt SHIT yes... fatid aroma... flirting our nostrils... toying our tastebuds.... total appetite spoiler n vomit inducer... at first we thought the family sitted next to us was changing their baby's diapers...(horrors!!! u can't do that in a restaurant!) but it turned out we maligned the poor baby... it was actually the sewers...wow... fantastic!!! anyway we still finished our food... n to spoil swenson's "plan" to turn our stomachs so we wont clear their ice-cream, we ATE ice-cream... eric n ks had 6 huge...(who's stupid enough to order an earthquake to share?!) jiayin n lisa had 4, me n eileen shared 4.... haha.... shuang... bet i'll stay off ice cream for weeks!

now i shall abuse n scold myself... girl, there's only 39 freaking days left till 'A's... look at ur results....u should slap yourself lor! better work harder or else you'll be left wallowing in self pity, intense jealousy, n most agonizingly, REGRET!!! yeah so mug mug mug....