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today was totally another fei4 day... woke up at 5.30 to finish of chem paper den packed my stuff and went to sch... damn... i'm still so early la... GP starts at 9.20... hAIz... GP was a waste of my time la... other CTs are feverishly doing compre n essays.... while my CT... talking about GP which would hardly be of great help... what to do? our dear tutor's sick, preoccupied with her wedding n most appallingly, inexperienced... k shall not demean her lest i get sued by HCI or whatever...

so finally GP lesson over den me, eve, irene, weed, eric n ks went swimming!!! FInally after so many days of comtemplating swimming sessions by myself n failing terribly to do so due to utter sloth, finally get to swim... peilin, qiuting n jiayin studied at poolside restaurant while we swam... the sun was beating down hard on us but SUN is GOOD... repeat after me... SUN is GOOD.... not sun ho though... i think she sucks totally... anyway, swam 30 laps like a humpback whale.... slow n steady... chinese high pool is shuang cos there's literally no one else other den us n entry fees is only $0.20... though we pay $3 every month for its maintenance!!! damn.... but aniwae it was a good swim... hoped i burned some calories! haha... woah... but kao eh.... i din realise my goggles too tight so now both my eye areas are bruised!!! =(

today fa yi X dang an last episode... I think this show is worth watching, not becos the actors and actresses' acting were superb but rather the storyline was pretty captivating n mind boggling... even my dad who abhors tv serials commented tt it was QUITE nice... haha... yup so the last ep talked abt these humanoid plants n their all the env stuff... left me thinking abt Homo Sapiens, aka humans.

i think its really amazing that we humans, with neither the size to overwhelm predators like the elephants, nor the speed, claws, strength nor stealth of the big cats to overpower preys could adapt so well to the environment n fluorish. I read that the success of Homo Sapiens had to do with their success in obtaining more nutitious foods n quality rest that allowed the development of our brains. well, so i guess we are what we are today due to our ancestors, but i believe that in the course of our evolution, we Homo Sapiens must have done great evil, as our competitors had to be eliminated, if we were to get the most resources. Survival of the fittest, perhaps that's the reality of life. Sometimes i wonder if our survival n great success in perpetuation on Earth is really good. Look at all the world today, there are still so many people who can hardly feed n clothe themselves, who spend half their lives being eaten by diseases, who were born to die. Yet, there are people who gorge themselves silly at table buffets n discard food indiscriminately, splurge on expensive clothes that probably a child made for less than a dollar.

Actually, the human reproductive success is one of the lowest in the animal kingdom(a tiny fraction of sperms ejaculated make it to the egg, 40% of fertilised eggs make it to the 3rd month) so many odds against the production of a new human being, yet Earth is almost brimming with humans in this 21st century. Isn't our life force amazing? I think its so strong that it has suppresed and threatened the life force of the natural world, animals and trees alike. Ironically, we feed the life force of bacteria n viruses that threaten our own life force! I can't help but wonder if we ourselves are the cause of our own undoing... I think the world today is a quite a horrible place to be, like it was since the first human civilisation sprouted. though i'm no history pro or well versed in current affairs, it's really not hard to notice that there has been no cessation of wars, genocide, cruelty, endemics, pollution, destruction, disasters, corruption, misery...the list goes on. yet people in power don't seem to give a hoot, n carry on playing with nuclear weapons n all that. Maybe after all that humans' talk about love, peace, benevolence n all those feelings we pride oursleves upon, we are innately, undeniably driven by the instincts to survive...