the last song

this morning was jus like any other normal school days where hordes of students still hanging around the class benches were shooed by the intimately adderessed tiger lee to attend morning assembly.

"the school song"...
" as part of our voices......."

It's the very last time i would be singing the school song in Hwa Chong and at that point in time where i was listening to the school song( i dun usually sing anithing during morning assemblies), i wondered which other JC2 student realised that it was the last time they would be singing the school song.

Before time had diluted my memories of the last day of school in DHS, i have almost completed another part of my journey. I had my doubts reserves about 1 year and 10 months ago when i stepped into Hwa Chong but before i knew it, my JC life is almost over... how much i matured, how much i achieved, i dare not compare with others, but what i don't pale in comparison with others is the feelings i felt throughout JC...

In just a short span of 2 years, i have gone through a lot, both good and bad. I have seen how my CT( 04S72) changed, how my classmates changed, how i myself have changed....

2004:

• everyone was still awkward with one another. There was evidently a lot of cliques, dunman clan, sc clan... all those awful exclusions of individuals made me sick to the core... perhaps cos i didn't belong to any cliques, but more because i prefer a united class...
• the system in JC was markedly different from that in DHS. more freedom means more discipline if high levels of performance was to be maintained. sadly, i abused the freedom i had and allowed myself to indulge in the sinful act of sloth. thus, the results were mine to bear.
• which brings me to another point. I think my confidence has been greatly hit. i find myself less confident, which is really bad....perhaps u may not notice it, but yes, i feel much less confident to the point of feeling inferior....
• PW, CCAs and immaturity spawned enmity, quarrels, ostracisms amongst many of us. i jus couldn't understand how silly we were.
• After promos and PW ended, things took a change for the better. Our class had a chalet where i guess bonded most of us...

2005:

• a new school year, things looked promising, and it was. at least our math n bio tutors were now permanent and not pregnant! goodness, las yr both math n bio tutors were pregnant!
• mrs foo n mdm yeo were great teachers, at least our grades showed, n i gradually picked up some comfidence.
• our class was becoming more crappy, loads of crap coming mainly from the usual suspects( guess i'm guilty), yeah... the things become catalysed... n 40 mins were passed in continuous laughter.
• though all of us had different "buddies" in class, there was much more class spirit n it is mentally comforting as we rendered support to each other esp when we were mugging for prelims.

And i hope the story continues... the stress of the exams has overpowered the sad emotions that comes with every ending of a story,ironically. 04S72 is full of bright ppl who would soon jet off to different parts of the world after this year and gatherings will be bound have many absentees. thats the reality of life, but i hope that down the years, we'll still be as joyful as we are now...